What is it about being a perfectionist at your core? You want everything done correctly. The problem is, who gets to choose what is correct and what is not? If this small decision is messed up in your mind then you are in for a surprise when it all comes crashing down. I have found that there are many areas of my life that if I can't do them perfectly or at least really good I lose all desire to do them.
The other thing... When people feel like they need to correct me for my prideful assuming ways... Why do they feel like they have to go on and on explaining how I was wrong? I know they are attempting to keep things on an even keel, but don't you think that being pulled into a storage room alone with two supervisors is enough to tell me I am about to get in trouble for something? They always say, "I am just going to come out and be blunt etc." Yet they never are, instead of "you are stepping on toes, its not your job to do "X,Y,Z" I get "Well i understand why you want to do this blah blah blah." When I realized what they were saying I wanted to just scream "STOP I understand, problem solved." Its hard enough to be a perfectionist and be told you are wrong, its worse when the telling is not brief. Let me please go so I can just fix it.
Now it feels awkward and I want to pendulum swing the other way with my behavior and ways. Jobs are never easy, but for someone who really cares about how good of an employee I am and how good the company is, it can be challenging. Geez drinking a Mikes fast makes my head swim. I need a vacation.
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