Emotions

There are times when I get a feeling of "X" that is so overwhelming it is almost debilitating. I have found in those times that the best, and or only, solution is to just keep going. This could mean continue driving, working, reading, singing, etc.
One could almost describe it like a wave that washes over you, just wait a minute and it will pass. I have a good friend who does not live by these rules, he does not experience emotion the same way I do. I almost envy him, as my life when in working order is a roller coaster of emotional waves.

When I was growing up I remember being told constantly by mentors not to make decisions based upon my emotions. I would then think what are you talking about, this IS me thinking and making decisions based on whatever I thought was right at the time. As I have aged I have learned to read myself better knowing that what is right has a base in wisdom, logic, and truth, God's truth. Now I see the same emotions striking and moving me, but no longer must I follow their path. This is very good for me as the path of emotions is not the straight and narrow I need to be following.

So I begin and end my days beseeching God for strength and help, to weather another day alone with my thoughts and emotions. This is my lot in life, I will change as I grow, but the nature of my brain will not. The only thing that changes really is how much I can notice the waves and with the strength of Christ ride them.