This past week I have been visiting my very best friends in Ohio. This trip has thrown into relief all the healing I have yet to do. I went to school here, met my wife here, etc. The drive out here in itself was full of memories, some pleasant some painful. While it is true that I have come here since my divorce, I was at the time in survival mode. I thought I had healed thought I was mostly over it, but I wasn't.
It has taken me seeing this place to start to deal with the past made here. God has been very good to me by allowing me to deal with some hard emotions and deep seated pain. I have also been able to talk with my friends and flesh out what some of my issues are. One of the biggest problems I had was that I was so blind to reality when dating her.
Evidently I was caught under her manipulative power very early read from the start. In the end I couldn't believe a word she was saying, it was all twisted. My friends all claim to have seen this problem, but never really challenged me. Sure to be fair I wasn't really listening to common sense. 20/20 hindsight is a funny thing, but it has taught me that if a friend comes to me raising these kind if concerns I NEED to listen. I am so embaressed that I let it all happen the way it did, I have thought for so long that I had things under control, but I was activly drowning before I was even engaged.
Friends reading this post, never let me do that again. Please do whatever it takes to bring me to my senses! Never hold back information in hopes of not hurting me. If I knew how she was acting to everyone behind my back things could have been different.
A good example of this has just come up. I just found out today that my ex is remarried. My friends had been keeping this from me because they thought it would be to hard for me to hear. While it was hard to hear that less than a year after our divorce she got remarried, but it is allowing me to heal on an even deeper level. Never again friends! I don't care how uncomfortable the conversation, I will appreciate honesty better down the road. Thanks
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
Dude. Seriously? That's nuts.
ReplyDelete